Starting a business is not easy, even when you set the intention to do it from the heart, be in flow, be present and give it your all…what could be so hard? Maybe such vulnerability is what makes you so attractive to those that are out for the opposite? Who knows?

Some stories just need to be told…

Soon after becoming a Conscious Parenting Coach in 2019, I fell into circles of spirituality. That was all well and good. I learned lots and widened my mind concepts to places I had never even heard of. I saw amazing teachers speak. Thought leaders like Eckhart Tolle, Teal Swan and Marianne Williamson to name a few. But I also got pulled like a magnet to another teacher who will remain unnamed. She taught Light Language – that was a trip. If there’s something in all those shapes and codes, then hit me with them now because what started out as innocent exploration soon became a massacre. I guess I will never fully know the truth, but what I know with every fibre in my being is that I completely disempowered myself to someone else. I let them get into my head so much that I lost my own instinct and all the while, I put them on a pedestal. I worked for free, gave up time in the name of awakening and even lost thousands and thousands of pounds on nothing but a very hard lesson.

The funny thing is, I did eventually see the light. To this day, I thank you for ripping me off, for making me wise to what nastiness can exist and for teaching me to never disempower myself to anyone ever again. You have been one of my greatest teachers.

By reaching out for this ‘more’ and for what was beyond or outside of me, I fell foul to what I knew. I fell foul to my own tag line. The answers lay within; I did not need to seek outside of myself for them. Now, that’s not supposed to sound conceited at all. I am not the wise old sage sitting on the mountain top. I am the mountain. I am still and everything good comes to me. Whatever dreams you beholden, don’t give up on them. If you live for a life of purpose, everything else doesn’t really matter.

You see, when starting out in any venture, the imposter will often sit on your shoulder. You’ll compare, you’ll question, and you’ll doubt yourself and everything you do. Befriend that imposter because it’s just your ego in disguise; it’s testing and pushing your boundaries, constantly asking you, is this what you really want? Are you good enough? It’s merely your inner child insecurities rising up every now and then.

Thank them and bid them farewell.